The last post I wrote was a little more… sad than what I usually post. One thing I have always aimed to do is be honest and write exactly where I am in these posts. I am sorry if the last post gave the impression I am unhappy or something is really “wrong.” While I wouldn’t change a word from my last post, I would want anyone reading to know that this is a tough time but I know this is where I am supposed to be (and it will get better).
As I read through a devotional this morning, I am acutely aware that I am supposed to be right where I am at this very moment. I subscribe to a few devotionals and all of them today talked about the same sort of thing. The first started out with Psalm 139 (which I encourage you to read in its entirety on your own). Something to think about:
You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
5 You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
As I read those words, I was comforted by the truth that even those these are tough times, God has put me here and understands better than I what I am going through. Not only does He understand, He has put me there and is with me. What a comforting thought that God is with you.
The next devotion I went to talked about the meaning of names and how important they are throughout the Bible and Biblical times. The author chose to focus on Matthew 1 and specifically the name the angel told Mary she was to give Jesus. He is “Immanuel” (also “Emmanuel”) which means “God with us.”
Again, I was comforted with the fact that no matter where I am, God is with us.
While these are simple truths and things we have all read before, it is comforting in this season to here God tell me, “I am with you.”